Hello everyone!!! cool emoticons :cow:
Well, I do have sui thoughts a lot lately, I would say extreme depression, I am ok for everything right now, (almost)- i should have little to complain about, yet i cannot do the most basic thing (*looks for a really sad lookin emoticon....*):beam:
Yeah, I mean, I don't WANT to do it, it just feels like the path I am on and i have no idea how to snap my head back out of this depression.
I know the MH services here can't help. They are overstretched. I live alone and asked for a nurse to visit once a week for maybe 30 mins so I would have an excuse to clean the place and have it looking nice- something that really helps me- but NO! "We don't have the resources anymore, we cannot even fit in the rampantly psychotic" direct quote from my psych registrar.
And I am so disslusioned (sp?) with the psych team I have - been going there 12 years- hospital free for 4 years now- no inpatient. I am proud of that , no attempts for so long.
But heaven knows i'm miserable now.
And i did a lot of mental growing up recently, I am not as impulsive, but it, the idea , the plan, is in my face, in my head, most days.
Why pay to get my teeth whitened when the way i am feeling i don't exactly think they would be a long term investment...:argh:
I don't mean to post 'veiled threats'. I was a mamber of a forum for ppl w depression, bipolar etc before. I don't feel I am an energy drain, I can give help as well as recieve it.
I know from experience that there can be conflict on forums. Been there. Wrecked me head. I hope that i can gaurd myself to stay emotionally safe and not allow my triggers to control me.
Well, feeling all the better for saying hello. HELLO!!!!
Have some caaake!!! :cake:
Well, I do have sui thoughts a lot lately, I would say extreme depression, I am ok for everything right now, (almost)- i should have little to complain about, yet i cannot do the most basic thing (*looks for a really sad lookin emoticon....*):beam:
Yeah, I mean, I don't WANT to do it, it just feels like the path I am on and i have no idea how to snap my head back out of this depression.
I know the MH services here can't help. They are overstretched. I live alone and asked for a nurse to visit once a week for maybe 30 mins so I would have an excuse to clean the place and have it looking nice- something that really helps me- but NO! "We don't have the resources anymore, we cannot even fit in the rampantly psychotic" direct quote from my psych registrar.
And I am so disslusioned (sp?) with the psych team I have - been going there 12 years- hospital free for 4 years now- no inpatient. I am proud of that , no attempts for so long.
But heaven knows i'm miserable now.
And i did a lot of mental growing up recently, I am not as impulsive, but it, the idea , the plan, is in my face, in my head, most days.
Why pay to get my teeth whitened when the way i am feeling i don't exactly think they would be a long term investment...:argh:
I don't mean to post 'veiled threats'. I was a mamber of a forum for ppl w depression, bipolar etc before. I don't feel I am an energy drain, I can give help as well as recieve it.
I know from experience that there can be conflict on forums. Been there. Wrecked me head. I hope that i can gaurd myself to stay emotionally safe and not allow my triggers to control me.
Well, feeling all the better for saying hello. HELLO!!!!
Have some caaake!!! :cake: