I am live just to love, but it seems like I end up hurting. Life gave me a second chance after watching it's a wonderful life. I watched it by chance but then that's a movie from which i drew hope, hope to which I am clinging on to. When all hope is lost, people tend to write diaries, others seek help, and others confide to strangers, etc. I have thought of going into the unknown (death) from when I was 10 years for various reasons but was afraid of the unknown. Today I am still scared of it, is there anyway to teach yourself to live to love, and that too 1st love your family, your wife and the people who surround you. Apologies for the repeat post here, please delete the same from crisis forum.