Hi everyone I'm mike, this isnt gonna be short but if you read it all then thanks lol, i have a "problem" apparently im here only cos my family are making me get as much support as possible. Basically my life has been shit from the moment i enetered this world, I was born with a disease and it has made me look like a freak. I had an abusive father was picked on at all stages of education. I have made 3 suicide attemps since i was 13, currently on citalopram but they dont work. The only good thing thats happened to me was my girlfriend maggie, but i managed to mess that relationship up so she left but not before cheating on me. Sure im depressed and sure my life has been/is shitty but that's not why i want to go. Has anyone here had an Out of body experience? I have, been having them for about 2 years theres more to life than this empty shell of flesh, I want to explore beyond this life, this life is just a ride and im bored of this one i want to go on another ride, i have no use for this body, for this brain, for this 'life.' Why keep something you dont want? Sure everyone says life is precious, I had a expensive vase once, it smashed into pieces, did i keep it? of course not, I couldn't fix it so what was the point in keeping it? its the same with my life theres no reason to keep it its in peices. I have had doctors, family, friends even a preist (im not kidding) tell me its the wrong path to take. I know this is what i need. Why is everyone so afraid of death? Its gonna find you one day of another the only difference with me is im >choosing< to to end mine, the only reason ive not left this body yet is because my gran has just died and its hit my nan pretty hard so i'm holding of untill she gets help then im off!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! Anyway Hi!!