Hi there. My name is Steve. Unsurprisingly I consider myself to be very ill and have done for a while. But since my partner left me things have heightened rapidly. I have been severely depressed for a while now and have had the odd suicidal thought/urge. But now it is ridiculous. I wake up every morning sad and not wanting to exsist anymore. For all I have alot to be thankful for which I do it just seems like nothing can change the way I feel. I look up ways to kill myself very regularly. Its hard to open up to anyone without them thinking your insane! I hope I can hold on abit longer and get better for the sake of my loved ones. Anyways. I had no intentions of signing up until I read a few posts and was amazed of the warmness and love I felt from you guys (despite your own situation, problems, feelings and what your going through). Its like a family. Into which I felt welcome in before even introducing myself. If anyone ever needs a chat or is feeling down, feel free to message me. Thanks.