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Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by wannactb, Dec 29, 2010.

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  1. wannactb

    wannactb Member

    Just somewhere to air my thoughts, as all other avenues have slowly been cut off from me.

    I have my plan for ending it, and now it's just a matter of time. I need to do a lot of writing, both to the people I leave behind, and so that the person who caused all this doesn't get away with it. They've taken me this far with their lies, that there is no way the truth will not be told.

    Got just over 4 weeks to go. <Mod edit, WildCherry: Methods> Taking myself somewhere remote. Me, a tent, ipod, the above, and hopefully oblivion.
     
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  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Hi and welcome to SF. I've had to edit your post, because SF is pro-life and so the discussion of methods isn't allowed here. But I hope you'll stay and talk to us about what's brought you to this point. My PM box is always open if you want to talk.
     
  3. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi and welcome...do you want to share what is going on for you now and how you got to here? I am sure there are so many people here who can relate...welcome again, J
     
  4. wannactb

    wannactb Member

    Thanks, and apologies for breaking the rules on my first post!

    Unfortunately it's a very long story, and I'm writing the last of it in the 4 weeks or so left, but it'll all be available after I'm gone. Until then, I can't publish. I'm not Julian Assange! Or any other Wikileaks person - but I'll be sent to prison if I try to publish the truth. I hope the liars can live with themselves when I'm dead and everyone knows why.
     
  5. vector_2eh

    vector_2eh Member

    Hi!
    Do not do it , as old russian proverb says "Hope is dying last".There is always a solution to our problems.
    Think positive because there must be a light at the end of dark tunnel.
    Sorry for my english.
     
  6. wannactb

    wannactb Member

    HI Vector. No problem with your English.

    I don't even know what I'm doing on the forum. I know what I'm going to do, I know when I'm going to do it and I know why. I have no religious issues - e.g. hell etc - and expect that I'll just decompose like every other living thing.

    I know that there aren't going to be any miracles, before or after.

    I'm meeting some friends for a drink or two next week, and part of this is that saying goodbye is going to be the worst part. They know some of the <BLEEP> I've been through, and I want to be able to say goodbye properly - tell them that this is my decision.
     
  7. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    I have no idea what you've been through, but it sounds like someone was very cruel to you, lied to you ... something along those lines.

    What are you hoping your death would accomplish? Chances are, if the person or people who have lied to you can live with themselves now, that wouldn't change if you were gone. Is there any way you could seek justice while you're alive?

    Sorry, I don't know the situation and so maybe this isn't making sense. But it seems like part of the reason you're doing this is to make a person, or possibly people, pay for what they've done. But the chances of that happening are slim if you're dead.
     
  8. wannactb

    wannactb Member

    It is complicated, and yes, someone told some wicked lies. Because I trusted them at the time, I didn't get them to sign everything in triplicate - you don't, do you?

    Their lies then spiralled. I can't win while I'm alive. I've lost friends I've known for over 20 years because of this person's lies.
     
  9. Fitzy

    Fitzy Well-Known Member

    You won't win if you die. Killing yourself would give the liars so much power over you. Stay and fight.
     
  10. wannactb

    wannactb Member

    Okay. Badly phrased. It isn't about winning. It's about everything being so corrupt that the truth gets buried. Nobody wins.
     
  11. vector_2eh

    vector_2eh Member

    wannactb
    Tommorow i will face a court because i was so stupid and cosigned a loan for my
    "friend" , this scum has been for almost 2 years lying to me about how much money he had payed already to bank (he made onlty 1 payment out of 50).Now i am in great pain and depression my mood is constantly oscillating up and down between two polarities live or die.My all savings are exhausted i hired a stupid lawyer he did not anything and only took my money because of this i can not continue my higher education.
    Tommorow will be my judgement day i think that i will put an end to my miserable life.
     
  12. wannactb

    wannactb Member

    All I can say is that I hope tomorrow goes in your favour, and that your lying "friend" is brought to justice.
     
  13. vector_2eh

    vector_2eh Member

    Thank you for your support
    By the law cosigner is responsible for a loan, so it is only question how much i will have to pay.:sad:
     
  14. Fitzy

    Fitzy Well-Known Member

    But won't you lose more by dying and won't the liar continue to thrive?
     
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