Hey, I am a new member here who never tried to commit suicide, but however did threaten it and had a gun that they then unloaded after the threat. This was due mainly to someone that I was friends with playing mind games with me that made me think I lost someone that was a really good friend and had no way to solve fixing the friendship and that got me really depressed as well as being under stress from school and not having anyone to talk to my issues about like this friend let me do before (I never told directly but gave hints such as saying how upset I was and that they should keep the bullets to my gun which they then forced me to take back the next day). Right now I came here for support I guess you can say. Even though we had our troubles me and this friend, I struggle with the idea that I might have lost a really good friend. My other friend told me they do not hate me and still care about me however I just struggle some days with "will we still ever be friends, why did I mess our friendship up so badly by doing this". Are these things normal to struggle with given the circumstances of what happened and us both kinda still wanting to be friends but a 3rd party telling us we should not talk right now at all.