hi new member

Discussion in 'Welcome' started by mamur, Sep 26, 2011.

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  1. mamur

    mamur New Member

    name is marianne. in a lousy marriage and suffer from depression and irritable bowel syndrome, which is quite painful. son who is on the autistic spectrum buy highly functional in college but has very little emotions. daughter who is great but has moved to nyc 1-1/2 years ago and is too suffering some emotional upset. husband out of work now and is totally useless when dealing with my depression. 99% of the time he makes me feel worse, blames things on me and calls depression BS as well as my physical ailment of IBS- says it is all BS. Terrible provider and passive aggressive. Not a nice person in any sense of the word. sad that I have a husband here and a son and I have to resort to a forum to get help and feel safe. married 28 years. been in hospital 3 times since dec. of 2010. Once for a pulmonary embolism and again for the same and the other was for a suicide attempt which obviously failed. Have not recovered fullly yet from these things. am 57 yo and so so tired. had an emotionally abusive mother but wonderful dad. horrible brother, only other sibling who does not even speak to me. tried and tried to make a good life for my family but my husband was either getting drunk or knocking up girls. 2 out of wedlock kids from before our marriage but still hurt emotionally and financially. always did my best to help everyone and no matter what I did, it wasn't enough for him. only thing from keeping me from ending my life is my daughter who would never get over it. hate my life and now am too ill mentally and physically to do anything about it. feel trapped and so so sad. much more to tell but this should me enough for anyone to get the idea as to why I am here.
  2. jimk

    jimk Staff Alumni

    hi mamur.. welcome to SF.. you got a lot on your plate now and could use a place to just be yourself and get some support for yourself.. hope this place gets you that..

    i have a almost 35 yr old autistic son Johnny who is quite a bit more disabled than your son but i do sort of understand autism after all these years..

    hope to see and hear more from you here.. tc, Jim
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hi hun have you ever thought of just moving closer to your daughtr hun leave the abusive ass of a husband You can go into women shelter for awhile they will help you get back on your feet again be independant of him just a thought hun You need to look after YOU hun hugs
  4. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi and welcome...sounds like you have so much on your plate, and have done so well with your children...I hope that is something you are proud of...you said you have a provider that is passive aggressive, do you bring to him/her any of your concerns, and if not, is there any possiblity to change providers? I hope you continue to post and to tell us what is going on for you...welcome again
  5. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    Welcome, Marianne. I will be sending kind thoughts your way.
  6. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Welcome to the forums..I agree with TE that you should move closer to your daughter.. Leave that ass clown to fend for himself.. Theres no reason for you to stay and put up with him..You can apply for child support also so theres a little money coming in..Take Care..
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