Hi, I am new here! I guess I should hmmm sort of tell a short story about my life : I am 14 years old, I have been locked up in mental hospital for almost 5 months now, I've tried to kill myself 3 times, and now finally I am getting out of the hospital - just to go right into a boarding school to learn how to socialize (I've been diagnosed with Aspergers) and I don't know if i want to go to that school or not.... well well, what gets me suicidal is..... kind of many different things, I guess. I was sexually abused when I was 4-5 years old, and I am a selfharmerer since 2 years. My dream is to escape the country (I am sick of the social workers controlling and ruining it) and live in england. How the hell that possibly ever could work.. I spend most of my free time infront of the computer (when I am having free days from hospital) and when I'm at hospital I just talk to other patients and vandalize my room and arguee with the personnel, well lately atleast I've been pretty calm, no belt bed or anything like that...... Atm my life is all about a guy I'm in love with, if he doesn't want me I don't want to live, at all. So I try to figure out if he wants me or not, so I can decide what to do. I guess that's it. I've read the rules/guidelines/can't remeber what they're called, but there is sure something wrong about this post, my memory sucks.