Hello, I'm new to this site. I've never joined a site period unless you count FB or something. Umm, going through a lot right now....and don't want to tell my whole life's story, I'm sure you guys and gals get enough of that on here. A quick summary tho is that last month I had a lot of family issues on the go, then I got sick for a bit and then everything looked on the mend!...til those family issues stirred up a LOT of repressed pain and sadness that I held back for the better part of 13 years and then my girlfriend broke up with me and it all happened at once and my doctor told me that I had a complete nervous breakdown. Since then I've tried twice to end it, the most recent attempt being about two days ago. My now ex said that she's worried about me but has stopped talking to me and pushes me away; she has her own vulnerability issues...most of my family has alienated me along with friends. Realistically I have just a handful of people to fall back on if that. Lost a bit of weight, trying to put it back on. Everyday is a struggle...as corny as that sounds it is. This month is hard enough with it being the anniversary of my mom's death in a few days....yeah. I'm sorry for this being long, I don't know if I should of typed all this but just looking for, realistically, someone that can understand without saying they "understand" when they can't possibly relate you know? Because they never hit that point in their own lives... Anywho, umm thanks for reading and have a nice day.