hi please help

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by xmichellex, Sep 30, 2006.

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  1. xmichellex

    xmichellex Member

    hi i dont knw what to do anymore, im 16 yr old girl from the united kingdom and a month ago i tried 2 kill myself i took lots of paracetmol and alchol. I just dont knwo what to do anymore i just want to do it again, my dad used 2 hit my mum and he eventually cheated on her and they split i dont see him alot and hes really agressive. I have a boyfriend of 10 months and we were engaged but he broke it off with me, we are still together but he hardly ever wants to see me anymore, my friends have all left me, when i was 14 i was locked in a room by a boy i thought was my friend and he tried 2 abuse me, my friends said they believed me but now they have nothing to do with me. my family dont care they just think i am spoilt and lookin for attention, but i need help i tell my boyfriend and he just says i dont believe u or do it then. I sit there everyday thinking of ways to do it, about an hour ago i was going to stab myself but i didnt want to leave my mum to see me, i need help please dont ignore me or say i am attention seeking thsi is a last resort i just cant see the point in being alive, i give so much to people and they always hurt me my boyfriend has hurt me my family my friends i have no one but myself.
  2. itachi

    itachi Well-Known Member

    Sounds Like your having a Ruff time.

    Have you Told anyone that you feel like this?
    I Mean Like seriously sat them down and told them how bad you feel?

    I know you can't change your family but if your friends and your boyfriend don't look after you and treat you well perhaps they don't deserve to be your friends.

    also there are other things you can do like go and find a psycollogist to talk to about it. or failing that a GP will probably know how to help.

    Just Keep your Chin Up.
    Everyone on this site is really friendly and will help all you need to do is ask.
    You can PM me if you want to talk or my msn is jas_656@hotmail.com
    don't give up.
    Life gets better :)
    Lots of Luv
  3. xmichellex

    xmichellex Member

    thanks for replying i have and they dont understand they spend a day just being incredibly fake because they treat me nice and the next day there back to ignoring what i say, i try to talk to them and they just get distracted or pretend to listen i havent spoke to any psycollogists or gp i dont know what is wrong with me i sit there nearlly everyday just lookin at things and thinking what i could use to do it like with the pills i just thought in my head get them stash them and do it then and i just did and i just feel like no one cares about me really, they just are pretending because they have to.
  4. itachi

    itachi Well-Known Member

    Well I won't Pretend that I everything technical about this sorta thing but i do know where you are coming from having been there myself.
    When this happened to me I thought that noone cared but it was just me trying to convince myself that they didn't because my self-estem was so low. And I kind decided that if they did hate me Fukem. Id Make Something of my life and show them up. (But they Didn't Hate Me anyway :))

    another Idea try a youth Help Line and there will be people who really know what they are talking about to help you out.
    Try this link http://www.youthwork.com/hot.html

    And I care about you. You seem nice and I don't Want you to kill yourself.

    Luv Josh
  5. nonstopnoise

    nonstopnoise Guest

    Hey honey,

    I am sorry, my brain has gone, but I have read what you said.

    I think you need to talk to someone too, preferably someone who can offer, or get, you professional help, like your GP or a teacher, or someone like that.

    If you want to chat, feel free to PM me,

    Sorry for the useless reply, just wanted to say I read, and cared.

    Take care

  6. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    hey hun, first of all welcome, i can certainly relate with an agressive father and also my father hit my mother so can certainly relate to you on that point, ermmm i dont think theres much i can say, except going to the doctors or counceller, if you ever wanna talk about anything PM as i can certainly relate to the father issue, take care

    vikki xxx
  7. Jenny

    Jenny Staff Alumni

    Hi there and welcome to the forum :)

    I'm sorry for what you've been through.. it really does sound like you're going through so much, and with little support too. I am glad that you found this forum, and hope it helps you.

    How would you feel about talking to your GP about how you're feeling? When I told my GP i was feeling depressed/suicidal she was very understanding and believed me totally. They are not there to judge you, only to help.. and if the alternative is to die, then what have you got to lose by talking to your GP about your feelings?

    You may be prescribed anti-depressants, which could help lift your mood.. and you can ask for some counselling sessions.. this would provide you with some safe, personal space for you to talk about things.. to someone who is trained, won't judge or tell you what to do, etc.

    I hope you consider it.. i know it's scary to do but right now I guess you have nothing to lose by doing it? Please keep in touch if you want/can.. i'll be thinking of you

    Jenny x
  8. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    First of all, I would like to welcome you to this site. :welcome:

    I am sorry that your father had to be like that and if your friends just abandoned you then they weren't friends in the first place, as for your boyfriend I don't know the story, but it was definatly cruel to tell you to do it again.

    Life can deal you a tough card, but it can get better with time, the right combonation of therapy, medication, support and effort. But, I beleive that you can get better.....life can get better you just have to help it along, sometimes people find the right help soon and get better faster then others, but everyones different, but it's worth it, and I know a lot of us are looking for peace in death but that's not where to find it, if you really want peace you'll have to work for it but it's worth it and the best peace out there.

    I also wanted you to know that I am always here for you, you can't say you have no friends now, if want to talk on msn my msn is: painNsiolence@hotmail.com and ask if you want my yahoo......PM me anytime.

    You don't have to feel alone anymore, alot of us have been through the same type of situation if not still going through it.......and I am sending you some great big hugs........:hug: :hug: :hug:......:shake:

    With hugs,

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