The mental issues i can not bare anymore. All the dad's that i've ever known are assholes. I refer to myself as a guy, rather than a man due to the fact of not having a real father. Granite mystep father did provid houseing and such. But that mearly just money. The best father i consider was my uncle due the fact that he did stuff with me. He tought me things, but due to the stress/depression/anxity i can't remember much. And the way i'm it ISN'T my fault i don't know why i'm the way i'm. I just know it isn't my fault but it seems people blame for the way i'm. Or just clearly don't understand. Or just don't beleave me. The people that truly knew me may understand, but maybe not. But either way i can not bare it anymore, thier is no peace of mind any where it seems that i'm able to go. No one seems to understand how hard / exhausting it is to be me. To me it seems like no one understands how i feel, the hurt the pain the anguish that i go through every day. But i have the ability to cover it up well it seems. The price i would pay/things i would do to feel loved, wanted. Are limitless to me. I can't describe whats going on in my mind i have no words for it. The threats. The people that just hate me, with out truly knowing me. I've pretty much been crying for the last 2-3 days. I just can't take it anymore.