Terminally sad. I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels this way here and just wanted to introduce myself and get this first post over with...I registered a few weeks ago and just didn't have the courage to start typing but now I've gotten to the point that if I don't talk about what's going on then I don't know how much more of this I can stand. I've had someone I trust with my heart lying to me the past several years, intentionally because they thought that would be easier than the truth. This was the only person in 40+ years that I've ever been able to truly share(childhood abuse etc) everything with and it was wonderful and amazing. Since finding out it was all a lie to keep me happy and "writing checks" (figuratively speaking) I have been devastated. Everything I thought I knew and trusted about this person has been wrong...the worst part of it is I can't even get away due to circumstances I can't control. So I have to face this person every.single.day. The pain is killing me but any outward expression on my part is met with great hostility...I can tell no one about this I know, there's no one I can trust with even knowing how I feel about this person. I have to keep this facade up and pretend life is ok and I just don't know how much longer I can do that alone.