Hi! I just wanted to introduce myself a little bit. In advance: I'm from Germany, so please bear with me, if my English isn't that good. I'm in my late 20s, struggeling with depression and suicidal thoughts for years. Sometimes it's better, sometimes it's worse. Since I remember, I felt some kind of different and I remember several situations, other people made me feel like a stranger and not according to them. That's why I chose that nickname: Sometimes I feel like an alien and I wonder if anyone on this planet will ever understand me... Furthermore I've got a strange appearance, like David Bowie in that movie "The man who fell to earth". I've got different coloured eyes, too, a very, very bright skin and very bright, almost white hair. For now I don't have any suicidal thoughts, but I'm unhappy and some kind of world-weary. I don't want to leave this world, but I just can't stand it. I'd like to meet some people, who can reconstruct this. Maybe this is the right place.