I...I don't know why I'm here. I want to die. I suppose most people on this site have a similiar disposition. I also want to help others when I can. I'm not really sure what you all can do for me, but I'm open to try. As of right now, I have a plan, but I am not going through with it until I feel the time is right. I don't know when that would be. I'm sorry. I feel like I'm wasting your time.