hi there

[Mardivan]

My name is Brian and I am a lonely guy who is 27. I feel like im middle aged and alot of the time that leads to suicide. Last week I thought I had found a wonderful girl and we hit it off good I thought. Well the day she leaves she stops talking to me and ignores me like Im not worth talking to. Ignoring me triggers my suicidal thoughts. Reminds me that Ill die alone and ignored and that gives me nightmares. I cant believe I thought I cared about her and that she has cared about my feelings. Will I ever find the right person for me? Will I ever find one that sees past my hideous looks? My voices i my head tell me in ugly over and over again. They wont stop. Im getting counseling and they say just to tell myself im not ugly. Well they are not fat and dont get stares all the time. No matter how much I tell myself im handsome, the Im fat will come back to me. I would dream of a girl who sees past the fat and to the romantic writer on the inside. I just want to share myself with someone. Long walks on the lake and doing some fishing maybe or something. I also enjoy children as I want them so bad and I am good with kids. Anyways I hope Iget a reply to this or ill get get discouraged and give up all hope in my life.

Brian

 

[Lead Savior]

We do live in a very superficial world, but there absolutely are women out there who are in your position as well.

I sort of know where you are coming from. I don't suffer from any significant self-hatred based on appearance, but I don't get any attention from women anyhow.

 

[Anju]

I'm so sorry that girl walked away without even getting to know the real you. It's sad but true that people go on looks a lot in this world, funny the people who are really worth knowing are generally not the most beautiful ones. I'm glad you're getting counselling, no one should have to suffer about their self body image, I hope you can defeat those little voices :hug:

 

[Mardivan]

Thank you for the replies, I cant believe someone replied to me. I cannot stand to live without someone its very pain ful. As is the ignoring part that sucks ass alot. Im trying to get myself moving and its hard as hell to keep moving. I wonder if there are girls out there in the same boat as I am. Im so lonely.

Brian

 

[Anju]

It is very painful to feel alone...I know that feeling all too well :sad: if you ever need to talk to someone feel free to drop me a message. Take care

 

[beauutyy]

its werid, i hate thinking about being alone. and the thought of it makes me sad beyond belief,but im sure if you are as romantic and sweet as you sound any girl would be lucky to have you. obvisiously this girl isnt worth your time;sorry to say it so blunt but shes a bitch. a person that truely cares/cared would not ignore you like that,and would love you for who you are, not what's on the outside.

dont let it get to you, you will find someone and you will be okay
if you ever need someone, im here for you<33