hi. im new to this sort of thing. im a 21 year old guy from scotland who has been having these kind of thoughts seriously for the first time ever after getting an illness which i feel is changing my life. spend a lot of time in pain and worrying that my health is getting worse and that i cant function with simple day to day things. used to love to drink, dance, be with people i love. now i wake up and the 1st thing i wana do is go back to sleep. just thought id share. hope you all are well.