Hello everyone, I am a 34 yr old woman living in the UK. I have been experiencing a lot of emotional pain and loneliness, and I am hoping to reach out to others on here. People who understand! In my past, I have experienced a lot of abuse. Including verbal, physical and sexual. I think I have only begun to grasp lately, the negative impact that this has had on my whole adult life. The way I feel about myself, and the things that I have done. I think that I am learning, and I do feel wiser, so to speak. But it is not helping and I still feel incredibly alone in my struggles. So where to turn from here? I don't know :-( I think that I drink too much, to alleviate anxiety. I also think that I may have OCD tendencies. I have never been one to admit to a problem and seek help, so I don't know. As I get older though, I realise that things cannot continue as they are. I want to get better, but then I also want to give up.