Hello, I come from a working class family in Kentucky, I am a first generation college student, and from the outside in I am doing and succeeding at doing everything I want and desire to do. I have an impeccable G.P.A. a job at school and home and some really good friends. But very very few know how I feel on the inside. I've battled feelings and desires about hurting myself before but I've always been able to tell myself how "it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" and "I would be hurting so many people" even when I've been so close to ending my life, but now, these words have lost their power. I am so alone, even though I am constantly surrounded by people. I told 2 people about my suicidal feelings and they got very upset, and that is the last thing that I want is for people to get upset over me. I found this website the other night, and I hope that I can post and feel better, and eventually get better.