Hi everyone, I am a bit scared right now and stumbled upon this forum. Bit silly to be scared as I am a grown man apparently (just turned 30), I should be happy with my life and the people who love me but I am just so scared. Scared of so many things to list, I have tried to kill myself properly twice and self harmed a fair bit over the years to the point where I am disgusted with myself. I feel like I am just a drain on everyone, if it were not for people being upset I would be trying to kill myself again tight now, I try to make things better with drugs sometimes as I just want to stop thinking because my head hurts so much. I am sorry for the strange rant, It makes sense in my head and it is hard to put across in words. Hope everyone is ok tonight.