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Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Nast, Aug 12, 2013.

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  1. Nast

    Nast New Member

    So, this is my first time ever doing anything like this but I don't know where else to turn.

    Two years ago i was in an accident that destroyed my shoulder. They have tried twice to fix it and have had no success. The pain is intense and i have five daughters and i cant even play with them anymore. Every surgeon i see wont touch me and refuses to help me. I am at my wits end and cant handle living life like this any more. I dont want to do this any more. Everyone would be better if i was gone. including my wife and children. I cant even find a pain doctor willing to look at me. My shoulder is literally hanging out of socket OUT of socked and sitting on nerves and bone. I was hoping i could throw this out there and maybe find some help before i find another method of dealing with my anguish.

    I live in prescott Arizona and i have no light to the end of this tunnel. If i dont find help i can promise that i will just get rid of it the easy way.
  2. darkdays

    darkdays Active Member

    don't give up hope yet. I'm glad you came here for help, it shows you care about your family and are still looking for solutions. have you tried chiropractic or alternative medicine? i've never done either but some people swear by them. i'm not trying to guilt trip you or anything but do you think your daughters would all be emotionally well adjusted and better off if they had to live the rest of their lives believing that you had abandoned them? and trust me, no matter how well written your suicide note is, no matter how well reasoned, they're still going to think that your suicide was nothing but a copout.
  3. flowers

    flowers Senior Member

    Hey. Glad you found this community. The pain sounds totally horrible. I am REALLY sorry this is happening.

    Is there a possibility that someone could find a better hospital for you? Better doctors who specialize? You would not have to go there at first. just send records and images. Would it be possible?

    I have a friend who had her upper arm bone eaten by cancer. They told her that she would never be able to drive her standard car again. Or move her arm for that matter. She found doctors who did help. Even though the stage 4 cancer persists, it no longer is in the bone. And with the help of some very good specialists, the bone has grown back. I am not saying every story has a happy ending. But I hope that you can hang on to the possiblity. Even though the pain sounds horrible.

    Again, I am really sorry this is happening. I hope you will post here often. Its a good community.
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Did the docs explain why they won't help if they cannot then they should legally find you a referral that can help
    Even if you have to go out of the area you are living in hun there is help go back to your doctor and tell doc you cannot live this way anymore and you need another referral ok
  5. Britt.woodman

    Britt.woodman Member

    Hey, I live in mesa, az!!! I work at one of the banner medical centers. Maybe trying to look for other physicians within arizona. I have a friend who goes to a pain mngt provider and he feels like a new man. Banner is a leading hospital in so many specialties, im not sure if you have one in prescott but thats a thought. I have a daughter myself, I wonder what its like to have 5, you are one very lucky man.
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