Hi I'm new to this. I don't like to talk much, it makes me nervous, but lately I'm feeling lonely and I came upon this forum so I though I'd give it a shot. I'm a cutter but I stopped for a really long time. I thought about it a lot since but never did it again untill now. It's horrible i know but I can't seem to understand anything anymore. I feel so lost and it's the only way I know how to deal with things I suppose. I don't tell anyone, I don't have friends that's I'm close too. I guess a few but no one I would sit and talk about life with. It's like my life has spiraled down and not up. I have such a hard time talking to people because I'm always so nervous anxious or somewhat paranoid. I do think about death a lot but that's not why I cut, I'm not trying to kill myself, its just complicated. I don't know what I'm doing on this forum but maybe I'll find some answers. I guess thanks for anyone who reads this? I'm so horrible with conversation sorry.