Hi. I'm A. I joined this site because, while I've struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts almost constantly my whole life, I feel alone and desperate lately. I moved to a new city for work in March, and while my career is offering me more than I ever expected out of it or out of life in general, I can't get out of the deep depression (worse than the normal "low hum" of suicidal thoughts) I've been in. I have become totally isolated here. I don't have a close friend here to speak to and I am afraid of burdening friends out of state with negativity. Tonight's especially bad, so I looked for help or support or something. I hope I find it here, and can maybe help others who are struggling as well.