Just lost my job this morning. Really dont know what to do. I started thinking of where to look for a new one. But i dont know how to let the people i live with know i was fired..well dont want to tell them. Im in a park right now alone after driving around for a while thinking of ways to kill myself. Avioding the house untill its a reasonable time to go back and act like i just got off early. Im lost and unsure. I dont really know where my lifes going. I have a dream for the future....but i dont know if i can get there or if its really what i want. Im 19 but feel older then i am and confined. My small bubble just keeps getting smaller and im running out of air. Im really getting desprate for a way out.