Names Zebedee, 42 years old and suffered with mental health issues since I was about 14 when I had a breakdown. By hook or by crook I've survived and by some standards have done well for myself. But that doesn't detract from the dark thoughts and demons that live inside my head. <Mod Edit - Acy - methods> One day I will, I know that and I feel that day is now looming and approaching fast. If I've already decided then why have I joined here ? Truth is I don't know, maybe to see if there's anything I've missed in coming to this decision. Bar my brother my family are all dead, my job pays well but that's going down the pan and my other half whilst a lovely girl causes me far more problems than she'd ever solve. So, there seems one certain way out of it. Thanks for reading.