I posted more of an intro in the self sub forum. I'm ye olde 34. And had problems since high school. Started just banging my head against the wall rather than hang out with people. Escalated from there. Introverted. Unless drunk. Used drugs to escape. Made me worse. Stopped drugs when I hit rock bottom. Now just drink which is bad enough but need it to be FUN me. Balanced it works. Got a good job now. responsible. manager in fact. been okay for years, never felt the need to post on a forum about "stuff". Never talked about it with anyone. Now it's becoming a problem again. And I'm not doing it sensibly and I'm doing it seriously. :/ And don't want to go to the docs but considering it because I need something to change. So some manner of help is required. Even if it;s just anonymous talking.