Hi, well I have absolutely no idea what to say, so this is pretty much just a random string of words placed together... I suppose I should start by saying my name is Marie, I recently found out that I am not going to get better and I am expected to continue battling to be relatively okay for the rest of my life, when I have absolutely no fight left in me. I want to give up, I pretty much have, I attempted suicide 2 days ago, and unfortunately it failed. I have a husband who does love me, and a 3 month old son, and I know that everyone is going to say that I'm so selfish, but honestly they would be better off without me. I'm trying to push my husband away, but it's just not working. Infact I've pushed everyone away, yet everyone seems to keep bugging me. All I want is some peace, which I can't seem to find. I have absolutely no idea why I'm here, or even writing this, but hey I am. I had the crisis team round today, and had them asking what would help me, and I told them, that I had absolutely no idea, which I don't. So yeah, Hi?!