I came here hoping to find help and maybe make some friends. I'm not very good at this sort of thing, I'm actually quite private and don't even do Facebook and things like that, so this is very hard for me to do. I'm 37 and divorced. I have suicidal thoughts quite often. I have self esteem and confidence problems. I feel all alone even when I'm with people. I don't feel I can trust anybody. I don't think I have any real friends. I feel uncared for and unloved. I feel worse and worse everyday. I have gone to the doctor for depression but it's been a while. I find it hard to go to the doctor when I'm feeling low and depressed. I guess that's how I found this site. I do have a 7 yr old dog. She is staring at me now with big sad eyes. My best friend.