Hi, new guy from sydney, 40 year old. Too tired with everything and have been thinking about ending it for a bit but over the last few weeks the idea has blossomed into something else, now I'm obsessed. I dont want to die or kill myself but I'm just tired of it all. My wife is pregnant and that is about the only thing that makes me search for another way. But still would be nice to get this idea of it out of my mind. The more I try to ignore it the more it becomes entrenched, like it is meant to be. I dont know what to do. Spoke to lifeline last week and I dont think they were interested, just doing their jobs. Anyway, here I am.