Hey, everyone. My name is Melinda and I turned 21 not too long ago. The reason why I joined the forum is because it's very hard for me to let out my feelings without being judged for them or me thinking about it ruining someone's view of me. I've been going to a group along with a psychologist. They seem to work (?). But I've lately been having more "episodes". I feel like I can't change. I just feel stupid for being in school. It's very hard to boost my self-esteem when I know the reflection in the mirror is just this fleshy lump of a body everyone else associates it as being me, when I don't feel that it is of the time. I hope that this forum helps me over time.