Hi and welcome. This is a sanctuary for those who are alone and needing a friend to talk to. When I first came here, during a crisis period, I just couldn't believe all the people--total strangers--who were there for me, and I knew it was genuine caring. It made me want to return the same caring to others, which has also been a great benefit for me. It helps me to get out of my own problems and not concentrate on them so much. You won't be judged or ridiculed for your feelings. Glad you're here and you can PM me if you ever want to talk.