Well here it goes My name is Aaron and over the past couple of days I've had the urge to overdose or Hang myself. I've been crying for the past 2 days which is a first as i haven't cried in about 12 years. Hes my story. As I've completely fucked my life up to the point where i have no friends due to the fact that I've realise that I'm always there for my friends helping them with all there problems even lending money to them when they are low on cash and need to pay the rent etc etc. The fact that i didn't have that many friends to begin with as i was constantly bullied at school. Got beaten up nearly every day by gangs of lads. And when i need them for once in my life it like cant help you there oh you need to talk well I've got my own problems. And they wonder why i have a drinking problem maybe thats another reason why I've got no friends they all turn there back on me. No girl friend as I'm really a ugly person with a great personality who cares for people more than myself. But who goes for personalities when i look like this. Except for the last girl friend i had who i used to work with it was going great well thats what i thought then i got completely fucked over because she was sleeping with basically every single bloke who chated her up at work. Family think I'm a prick and that I'm a selfish bastard but I've ask for nothing in my life but just for once for someone to say your an okay guy or finally have friends who want to be with me and care for me. Also the fact that i lost my best friend on Friday night all due to the fact that he is really good friends with my ex and the fact i got really drunk and called her a whore which I'm a fucking idiot for doing it. Made me loose that friend who i will never get back and it's killing me just thinking about it. I just could not forget the past I'm such a horrible person and a prick. But then i have a guilty feeling in side of me because my aunt is suffering from stomach cancer and all she wants to do is live and heres me wanting to die makes me more upset. I just wanted to post this as I have no one to talk too and i just wanted to get a few things of my chest.