Hi everyone. Im sure you've heard this before but it took a lot for me to actually register on here. I dont even know whether I 'qualify' to be here. I haven't had anything horrendous happen to me, I've got friends and family who care about me. Still I just cannot stop thinking about how utterly pointless everything is, all this struggling on through life making out like everythings ok when its not. I can't really explain how I feel, painfully sad and everyday crying so hard I feel like my ribs are going to break. The only thing thats happened which I can put down to feeling like this is the fact that I dont have a job and I cannot get a job. The place where I was working closed down in December and I decided to start applying for jobs which would use my degree, jobs that I actually wanted to do. I've had 2 interviews in 4 months and didnt get either of those. I've had to move back in with my parents which after 3 years of living independently Im finding really hard. And I know that they are embarrassed to tell people that they're 22 year old daughter is unemployed and still living at home. Im embarrassed too. But even if I did get a job/flat I cant see my feelings changing-this is all so pointless. Thank you to everyone who just took the time to read this!