Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by electricblue, Sep 16, 2007.

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  1. electricblue

    electricblue New Member

    Hi i'm new to this message bord. I am in desperate need of new friends and socialising again. I don't know what to do. I'm seriously not enjoying my 20's. I'm 25 from the Uk and i still live at home and i haven't socialised in well over a year. I relly miss going out and doing all the normal things that people my age do. I've also never had a bf and that really gets me down. Whenever i see people i use to go school with they all seem to be settling down with partners and kids etc. My grandma passed away 6 months ago and the people i thought were my friends really haven't been there for me when i needed the support the most. I know alot of people find it hard to deal with expecially if they haven't experience loosing someone close. But i have always been a good friend (atleast i think so) and have always supported my 'so-called' friends when they have had problems. I know people will say to contact them etc but why should i shouldn't it be the other way round? The last 6 months i can't tell if i am living in a really long dream or what is reality. I have battled with depression on and of the last 6 years. I have good days and bad days but at the moment i think its a mixture of depresion and greiving. I don't want to go on living like this as i just don't think its healthy not to have any close friends. I live in a small town and it's definetly not the easiest place to meet new people. I joined my local gym in hope of meeting people but everyone seems to be in their own world which is understandable. I even joined one of my local weightwatchers meetings but everyone was older than me. I admit that i don't have any self confidence and i am really overweight but i have really been working hard on loosing weight (i've lost 23lbs so far) and working on my self confidence. I really am sick of my own company. I'm not a bad person at all i'm kind, caring and friendly. But maybe i'm not a likeable person if people don't want to be my friend. Sometimes i do wonder what it would be like to end it all, atleast people won't miss me seen as they don't now.
  2. Allo..

    Allo.. Well-Known Member

    welcome to SF electricblue :)
    congrats on loosing the weight you have, what a great acheivment.
    All I can say about your friends is that if you really want them back then why not contact them? you wait for them and they could be waiting for you.
    Why not? :)

    Ever need anything, got some questions or want someone to talk to you are welcome to PM me or add me on msn or whatever.

    take care, xo
  3. vbuk

    vbuk Staff Alumni

    welcome hun!! so glad you came to see this place. i hope it can help you asmuch as it helps me. i know things have been tough for you lately but im confident that you can get to being the person you want to be. you have been there for me so so much and i know you are so caring - i just wish others would see that.

    Im always here for you hun

    Love you

    clare xxx
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