I tried hard to kill myself. I almost succeeded. I was put on life support and airlifted to a major hospital. 3 weeks later I got out and still wanted to die. I had made things so much worse because of my attempt. Facing everyone afterwards was the pits. Forgiveness was a long time coming. I just wanted peace....... I'm so glad I failed. Things change. Feelings change. It takes time. My problems are still there. I still get depressed sometimes. But I'm stronger now and I am so glad I am still here. I would have missed some huge milestones in my sons life. And the opportunity to really have a good belly laugh again. If someone had of tried to tell me that I could feel like this again back in February when I tried to end my life, I would have slapped them. Hang in there friends. It's impossible to believe now, but when you hit rock bottom, the only way is up.