Hi, I joined this forum a couple of weeks ago. I didnt really have any intention of posting, I was just curious to know if I was somehow mad for wanting to end things. This forum has bought me some relief to know I am not alone. On Saturday night after a huge arguement with my mother I went out and took some pills. I then came home and slept for about 36 hours...no joke. I did kinda wake up a few times, but went straight back off to sleep again. My hands swelled up like balloons and I was incredibly itchy all over. My heart felt like it was going fast too, and I felt almost too dizzy to stand up. I am feeling much better now. I feel a bit weird and light headed, but I put that down to not eating since Saturday. My hands are still swollen and my rings dont fit! I must either have a high tolerance or I didnt take a lethal dose. I feel silly now that it didnt work. Like a proper drama queen. Am I glad it didnt work? I dont know. I am still off out tonight for new years eve. I have to keep up my happy appearance. Put on my brave face. Thanks for listening. I guess I just feel like I needed to tell someone about what I did because nobody else knows. I like the anonimity of this. I hope you all have a happy new year.