Hi !
My name is Iva (it means Willow
,i'm 22 years- old,from Bulgaria.
It's really difficult to write about myself 'cause I don't know what exactly is my problem.
I'll start from the beginning - 8 years ago my family had to sell our apartment and it was very difficult for me.It was my first year at high-school and my schoolmates hated me,and I really didn't know why.
One day after school I went home ,locked in my room,took my mother's pills(she suffered high blood pressure ) and drank all of them.It wasn't a cry for help-I truly wanted to die and deep in my heart I hate my parents for saving me.
The whole family pretended that nothing had happened,come on,we were too perfect to have a suicidal daughter.
I lived in the shadow of the perfect big sister so I tried hard at school,I wanted to be perfect.
Then I started having eating problems - everything from anorexia,bulimia,etc.
I still fight them everyday of my life-sometimes I win sometimes I lose...
Right now I'm losing,I couldn't take my exams at university,I lost my friends,I disappointed everyone..
I'm triyng hard to get my life together,but it's falling apart..I want to believe that I'm strong enough,that this pain inside me will finally go away.
My name is Iva (it means Willow
,i'm 22 years- old,from Bulgaria.It's really difficult to write about myself 'cause I don't know what exactly is my problem.
I'll start from the beginning - 8 years ago my family had to sell our apartment and it was very difficult for me.It was my first year at high-school and my schoolmates hated me,and I really didn't know why.
One day after school I went home ,locked in my room,took my mother's pills(she suffered high blood pressure ) and drank all of them.It wasn't a cry for help-I truly wanted to die and deep in my heart I hate my parents for saving me.
The whole family pretended that nothing had happened,come on,we were too perfect to have a suicidal daughter.
I lived in the shadow of the perfect big sister so I tried hard at school,I wanted to be perfect.
Then I started having eating problems - everything from anorexia,bulimia,etc.
I still fight them everyday of my life-sometimes I win sometimes I lose...
Right now I'm losing,I couldn't take my exams at university,I lost my friends,I disappointed everyone..
I'm triyng hard to get my life together,but it's falling apart..I want to believe that I'm strong enough,that this pain inside me will finally go away.
