Discussion in 'Welcome' started by kayla19, Nov 12, 2008.

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  1. kayla19

    kayla19 Well-Known Member

    so i've never joined anything like this before but today was the worst it's ever been and i figured i needed to do something. i've been dealing with depression among other things since i was in the 4th grade. i'm supposed to be taking meds for this but i don't. as much as i hate feeling numb and hopeless and so depressed that i want to die, i don't want to let those feelings go either. they're familiar. the first time i thought about killing myself i was 12. it's crossed my mind since then (i'm 24 now) but the thoughts have become more frequent and much more intense lately. i feel like such a brat because i have so many things in my life that should make me happy and want to live but instead i have to struggle to keep myself from ending it all on a daily basis. i was in therapy for a few years but i quit. financially it's not really an option to go back right now and i never actually talked about these feelings with my therapist anyway. i'm not really sure what else to write here, so i guess that means i'm done...
  2. iceeblusmurf

    iceeblusmurf Senior Member

    Well first off i would like to say :welcome: to the wonderful world of SF. :)

    I would also like to let you know that there are MANY of us here who know exactly how you are feeling, we are going through very similar or pretty much the same circumstances. We are here to listen, and if needed provide advice and support.

    I am so very sorry that you've felt this way for so long. But i hope that we can help you find some hope and happiness. there will always be someone here for you now. all you have to do is ask. :hug:
  3. kayla19

    kayla19 Well-Known Member

    thank you. now all i need to do is work on being able to ask for help when i need it...
  4. iceeblusmurf

    iceeblusmurf Senior Member

    Don't worry, it'll get easier as you get to know everyone around here.

  5. snowraven

    snowraven Well-Known Member

    Welcome to the forum a place where we all help each other in a safe and understanding environment. Don't be afraid to ask for whatever help or support you need. That's what the whole thing is about. Take care.S.:smile:
  6. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    welcome to the forum Kayla!! :welcome:

    I hope you find what you need here :)
  7. andyc68

    andyc68 Guest

    hi Kayla

    welcome to the forum, sorry to see you are suffering but please ask for help, we are a friendly bunch.
    i hope you find the support you need
  8. PeaceBlueFire

    PeaceBlueFire Well-Known Member

    Welcome to SF Kayla! I'm sorry you are having such a hard time right now. I hope you can get the support you are looking for and feel better soon. Peace :)
  9. Anime-Zodiac

    Anime-Zodiac Well-Known Member

    Welcome to SF.
  10. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    :welcome: to the forum Kayla. I am glad you found us and decided to join. I am sure you will begin to feel more at ease soon. :hug:
  11. LenaLunacy

    LenaLunacy Well-Known Member

    Welcome to the forum. Hope to see you more around the forum when you feel ready :hug:
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