Hi, I have been looking for something for me to go to when I am feel bad, and I can't get a hold of my counsler. I have been in this deep depression and i feel like its getting deeper every day. I have been having suicidial thoughts that consume me. I try to find reasons to want to stay alive and I can't find any. So I'm hoping that I will come across something here that will help me think of other things beside wanting to die.