I've already posted a few threads on here, but I just wanna talk about suicidal thoughts. I would <mod edit: resistance - methods>, but knowing my Mum will walk into the living room and see me on the floor, pale and drenched in blood would just be unnessacarily disturbing for her, seeing as she's already been through a trauma with my Dad (he tried to kill her and also was violent toward her giving her a mental breakdown). I've also been trying to find <mod edit: resistance - methods> pass out alsmost immediately and die with no pain, bu I can't seem to find any. I searched up on the internet that you can <mod edit: resistance> within three days - a week but that would be quite unusual and my Mum would notice when I start to become nautious and can't walk etc. I've thought about <mod edit: resistance: methods> but that wouldn't look delibarate, yes I want my death to look delibarate, not to hurt, but to let them know I wanted to end my life and to let them know I oculdn't go on.