Hi I'm Chris aged 49. Have suffered from depression for most of my adult life, since aged 18 so have hardly worked because of it. Have suffered from obsessions in the past too but haven't had a major one for 5 years. Silly ones and afterwards I realise I was thinking wrongly but didn't seem so at the time. Been taking Citalopram for 5 years which seemed to lift me. Married to a Filipino lady since 1992 and since discovered she only married me to stay in the UK and doesn't nor ever has, loved me. She treats me like a slave as does my 13 year-old daughter. Every day I wish I'd get cancer as I don't want to live a day longer but can't pluck up the courage to end it. My wife wants me to as she hates me. She truly does. Tells he to F off every day and goes straight upstairs when she comes in and has eaten every evening. She went with my daughter to Philippines for Christmas and a woman started ringing me, saying my wife was sleeping with her husband there. She's in Hong Kong. Said it's been going on years every time my wife goes home, but his wife's only just found out from one of their sons. At first I thought it was a joke but my wife's admitted it, in great detail.hmy: My family still think she's just winding me up but as she says why would the woman ring then? Thought at first it was one of her 10 sisters playing a joke she'd put her up to. Why would a wife admit to an affair that's not happened though? I do think it's true now and am angry and feel awful. Our daughter's badly behaved to me too but not her mum. Every day's a friggin' nightmare. I'm drinking lots at present as I'm so pi**ed off. My GP is great but just says "oh it'll be a joke" and says the tablets are "just keeping you stable" so won't change them.