Hi, I can't believe it has come to me posting on here but I don't see the point in anything right now. I'm 21. Never had a job. Never had a girlfriend. Pushed away most of my friends over the years and I'm now left with hardly anyone. Told my dad I never wanted to see him again a few weeks ago as well. I'm at university and this is meant to be my final year but I've had to quit and I'm starting the final year again in September. Felt so awful this year that I literally couldn't do the work (was basically having panic attacks at one stage over some meaningless uni work-first time that had ever happened to me to that extent). I feel so unequipped to face up to the challenges in my life that I could easily just end everything now. I wouldn't even have the guts to kill myself though so that won't happen either. So here I am just with all the self-pity even though I've caused all of this. I'm totally alone in the world now. I've done nothing in my life and basically feel worthless. Also, the worst thing is that nothing serious has happened to me to cause me to feel like this. I don't even have a proper reason for feeling so bad. Now I'm fast running out of money and my only option is to get a job. I'll be honest and be pathetic as usual and say that I'm scared of attempting to get one because I've got absolutely no experience and I have no idea how to explain that to employers. Also, I feel so bad about myself that I hate the idea of having to work with the public in any job. I went to counselling for a few weeks at uni. It helped massively. After each session I'd feel great but that would wear off gradually. I went every week but stopped a couple of weeks ago because I was feeling great for a short while and it felt like it had reached a stage where I had to go it alone and the counsellor had done all that they could do. Reality has sunk in again now though. To be honest-all I want is a girl in my life. Just someone to be with and then I'd feel like I could move on from all of this but I don't even attempt to ask anyone out because I don't think anyone would want me.