hi, i'm currently in the state many of you may understand that for some reason or another i ought to make the decision to end it. its a decision i have made multiple times before but by some higher force it has never gone through. when i try this there is always something holding me back something that makes me cling onto life but this time i cant see it. i joined this forum as a last resort, just a small cry for help in a world full of pain. thanks.