Hi, I'm 20 years old and from the UK. I've been seriously considering suicide for the past 6 months since breaking up with my girlfriend of 4 years. Pretty much the only thing that's stopped me is the fear of somehow fucking it up and being left severely disfigured or brain damaged. I've had a drug problem for quite a while now but it's spiralled out of control in the last 6 months and now I find myself using a variety of drugs pretty much all day every day to cope with the pain and make my life almost bearable. My relationship with my ex started as a long distance relationship and then I moved 200 miles to live with her in '07. Now that we've broken up I'm sick of every place I go to and every person I speak to reminding me of her. I've become a virtual recluse lately with only a few close friends and this doesn't help the way I feel at all. Anyway, I'm rambling now. In short... I'm a wreck. I'm sure I'll get to know you all soon enough.