Hi, I'm Ali, my partner left me 2 months ago after 18 years, I'm not coping well, I became so obsessed with/passionate about caring for injured wild birds that it took literally all my time up and he felt rejected. I've tried to show him what he meant to me but he said it was too late. We were so close and special together, I've lost the love of my life. He is keen to stay friends, he said we know each other inside and out, that he still loves me (as a friend) that I'm the person he'll never have to bullshit with. He said if any future partner of his can't cope with our friendship that he wouldn't be with them for long. That he will always need me, that I am special and important to him. It's like torture, the last few weeks we finally talked about all the problems but I'm not being given a chance to put things right. Some couples could rebuild from it, I feel angry that we can't, like I'm not worth it. he left twice before (before I started the bird care), cos we'd got into a rut, he moved out for a while but came back and we were stronger after that and he kept saying why did he ever leave, that he couldn't live without me and that he regretted leaving. He even said this year that he'd never leave me again and I'd say but we don't know that! What hurts even more is that a group of friends who I introduced him to no longer bother with me but they still see him, and one of them is someone he used to fancy last time we split up, I am terrified they will end up together, and I am so angry that she hasn't been there for me, she is selfish. I don't know how to get through this, I can't believe he has gone, I'm stuck in an endless nightmare. Thanks for reading.