My name's Ben or lonercarrot, whichever you prefer. I'm 20 and I'm a student in college. I signed up to this because I've been having these kinds of feelings again.. Thinking about suicide isn't something new to me. It's not like I've just been having a bad day or a shitty week, I've felt like this for a long time. But now it's different... I feel more trapped and I'm more convinced that any kind of change is impossible. I have no one to talk to about this in real life and I've avoided talking about this sort of thing even behind the anonymity of the internet, so I might be a little reluctant at first. Anyways, I'm hoping that by signing up I'll be able to talk to people and maybe even make myself feel better.