Not really sure how to start this but, tonight i just feel a little depressed. I know my problem isnt that bad at all when i go and read other peoples problems. But it just bugs me now and then, sometimes i dont feel depressed for weeks, but theres just some days, where it feels life is too long. I know i am seeing someone about the way im feeling, but i dont really know how much it will help. I just know that i dont know how much longer i will live it feels like some days, cause just about all of my friends are leaving this september(i know that some people on here must think that im stuipd for thinking that this is what im depressed about, but really my friends, is just about the only thing that really keeps me going). And the rest of the few thats left, are working, but dont really have time to chill. they got school and work here. I work too, so i dont get time during the week, but they work on the weekends... I just hate having to know that in just a few short months i will be alone, i dont know whats going to happen after that, which is what scares me. I know i already hate work, which doesnt help, cause it sucks doing oil changes all day long. Im waiting for an apprenticeship, and it beens nine moths and i havent gotten anywhere.. I dont know what im looking for as in help, but maybe someone could help me with that? Im sorry that i have written so much, but my fingures just kepted typing. I think i've writen just about everything thats making me depressed right now, but im sure theres more. Matty, thats what my friends call me.