I'm new here (well, duh). I just wanted to introduce myself and say hello to everyone. I'd like to remain fairly anonymous, I probably won't share my name on here. I'm young but I feel as if I've been through it all already. I do struggle with my mood a bit, seems like there is always something wrong. I'm known by my peers for being happy and smiling all the time, but it's a lame facade I've constructed to keep everyone out. I'd like to be close to people but it doesn't happen because I feel threatened easily and push everyone away. Right now I'm just trying to manage the best I can with what I have. I am an active self harmer, have been for years, and I can't see myself stopping for a long time yet. I do get suicidal sometimes but I know that isn't what I want, I desire to be happy and to have friends and not to feel lonely and worthless and crappy all of the time. Anyway, hi everyone. I guess if you're on here things aren't the best for you right now but I hope that they get better.