Don't know what to do. I just want to die. I've had feelings in my young teens where I have wanted to attempt it just so people would notice? But now I just want to die. Have a very hectic life which can be awful at times but better at others. Did some silly things before this big low and was arrogant and drinking lots. I've not been to a doctor, however I have been speaking to a priest who is a close friend of a friend despite being agnostic. Just can't put my finger on why my feelings are so extreme.