I'm here because I have been having thoughts of suicide. I don't want to tell anyone because they'll just say I'm trying to get attention or they say my problems aren't even that big of deal. But it is to me. And even if they say something to stop me, my thoughts just keep coming back. I have even had a little plan in my head about what I would do. One time, I was so angry at myself that I drove wrecklessly hoping that I would get into a car accident and just go. But always, I would pull myself back from the edge of this black hole and drive back home. I just don't know how to live anymore. I am frustrated and angry about what is going on. I can't change anything.