I've decided to come here to hopefully receive some sort of help/advice/comfort. I don't have my hopes up though. Over the past week or so I've come and gone from many different websites & chats after not getting much of anything. Only hearing "sorry" or something similar. Worst of all I've even had some people with the nerve to actually push and provoke me to harm myself. Really it's the last thing I need. So...I guess I'll start out by telling my situation. I'm a 23 year-old male. I guess you could say I've had bouts with depression over the past few years. I've never been actually diagnosed for it. For a while I coped by drinking heavily but I haven't done so in about 6 months because in that time-frame I was actually very happy. I feel VERY lost and overwhelmed. All I hear is 'oh, you'll get over it' or to accept everything. Not exactly what I want or need to hear. My mother who I've been very close to my whole life has been in declining health over the past couple of years, just before Christmas she was diagnosed wit stage III cancer. She's not doing well right now. I know there's nothing I can do for that and I'm going to end up losing her eventually. On top of that, my girlfriend and I broke up two days before Valentine's Day. This is what crushes me the most. I cannot even put into words how much she means to me and how much I love her. We were in a long distance relationship and she started to grow lonely and said it was time to end it. I asked her to keep her heart open and try to work things out with us again and all she can tell me is 'maybe'. She says she still loves me. I'm trying my damnedest to keep her. It's all the hope I have that keeps me going every day. I've told so many people this story. So many have told me to harden up and not be so emotional. That my girlfriend is trying to let me down kindly. Just go out and find someone else, like it's as easy as going to the store. I honestly have never had that sort of connection with someone before and I'm not giving up on it. I seriously want to live a life with her.